I feel like the more I say that out loud the more I should actually be ok with it. In reality... I'm not.
I would love to be but right now, for me, life just makes it hard. Everyone in my family is in a romantic relationship, most all of my friends are... but what about the me's of the world? Now don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to throw myself a pity party here (though it does happen some), but in reality not all people are called to spend their life in a marriage or even a committed relationship. What if God has called me to be single? I would like to say I'd be ok with that. Even if I knew straight from the Lord that that was the calling for my life, in this world I don't know if I could ever be ok with it.
All that being said, when I turned 30 this year I decided being single and wanting a relationship would no longer hold me back from doing the things I want to do and the things I want to experience. I would no longer spend my life being the third wheel with people, though i always appreciate being welcomed by my married friends. I didn't want to spend my life creating profiles and fishing through a list of guys because apparently I need "more dating experience." I decided to change things. I don't want to miss out on things due to: being alone, being told that it isn't responsible, or that I am too old. I want to experience all things to the fullest. Make the most of every moment. Hear every story that is to be told.
So here I am... writing the B-side experiences of my life. The B-side of most older records is usually the side I want to listen to first. The non-commercial music in some situations. The B-side was often used as a space filler with many turning into hit songs. My B-side project is to record everything from photos, music, encounters, adventures... anything! You just never know what moment could be the "hit" moments of your own life.
I hope you enjoy!
C
